new year new me?

Hello there! Hasn't been here for quite a long while. It's currently around 1:45 am and I don't feel sleepy yet, so I decide to write down something that has been going through my mind lately.

Oh, first of all, hello 2020. And it is already March, I feel like I have been through so much already, and that's correct...

I have been feeling anxious, worried and self-doubted quite often for the past few weeks.  A lot of things happened all within the same month and I still didn't believe that they actually happened. I had such high hope and was so excited about my vacation which was planned like 3 months ago, but due to the virus outbreak, a lot of my travel plans have been cancelled. After a super long-delayed and stressful journey flying back to Canada, I found out that I have been laid off from my work due to the workload shortage, so with that being said, oh I gotta restart everything and find a job. And yet, and I still couldn't mentally believe this happened and I was in a panicking mood. On one hand, I was worried about my parents on the other side of the world, and yet I had nothing to offer to help with the situation; while on the other hand, I reminded myself worrying does not help and I also needed to settle myself down with a full long journey of job searching.

So voila I think here starts the new chapter of my adulthood. We never know what would happen tomorrow, but what we can do now is to set goals and try our best to make it happen. It's okay to be confused and undetermined sometimes,  I mean that's the interesting part of life, am I right :)

Until next time, ciao! xx